tired of it

this weekend, I'm still waiting for the notice from Microstrategy. I know i was not the best in logic thinking ( the focus for this position, as far as i know, lies more in analysis ability than in English level ), i should score higher in the English part. been thinking over the week about this crucial interview and everything about job hunting. few people from our grade is on campus, they all flew out and now are working. most of the time, i am jealous of them for they have a place to go at the moment, though not the best place. but sometimes, i may console myself, pretending that i was doing my intern at EF, and I've got my full time looking for another job while the others don't.
tomorrow is Monday, the first workday. if i still don't have a answer from them, that may mean i failed.
i don't know why i am so devoted to this company that i feel like crying at the failure notice. is it because i put too much hope in it? is it because I'm desperate for working at an IT company or is it because I'm exhausted in hunting my job? and i guess there is another reason: i am lonely on this road.