Was it meant to be?
It is all up to them to do
What can I choose?
But it is all up to me
Is it the shadow on my soul?
Now what are they trying to say to me?
Oh they did not know how.
All of them seven to eleven
Fight the feelings
None of these is easy
So what am I gonna do?
It’s just a thought
Gone, in a blink of my eye
I have no idea what happened to that smile
Hold on to my vision
That is what I do
Now that I’ve lost it
I could be homeless
I could be helpless
I could be sleepless
That is what I do
I hear the stars
I smell the earth
I feel my years
It is there, carrying on.
9/18/2010
6/28/2010
my 22nd birthday~life is a maze
long time since my last post, the longer i live, the less i write. tragic! tragic!
today is my 22nd birthday, to tell the truth, I’ve never ever had any birthday celebration since i started school. the reason is that the end of June is always a time for exams. thinking i would be able to celebrate and have a genuine birthday party after my graduation from the university, though the reality let me down again today.
you may wonder why i didn't celebrate. ok! let me tell you what an exciting day i've had today!
i went for an interview in xiasha, (where my lovely university sits). that is my forth and final interview for the senior foreign affairs specialist positon. the interview includes a 15 min prepared speech (with slides) and a 15 min impromptu speech. there would be a Q&A time after each presentation, which functions quite like our graduation thesis defense.
thank to those presentations practices during the 4 years and the thesis defense experience, i didn't feel nervous at all. instead, i can sense the great responsibility i shoulder for this position gives the first impression on the foreign customers' mind. in the presentation, many senior interviewers and senior directors (most of which are ABCs) would pretend to be our customers and give me tough questions about anything they wanna ask.
thinking the audience is only pretending to be our customers, i didn't feel any pressure. because even if you've f**ked the interview up, you may not damage the company's image.
so there i went!
before my presentation, quite shattering though, i was informed the most and the 2nd important customers were joining the meeting! that was what they call a "short notice"! tell me they were joking, please! they are! yes they are REAL customers! GOD! MY GOD! worse still, those GODS were both ABCs! F~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~K! my heart was going to pop
i was trying to ease down and focus on my presentation, telling myself that you were presenting your graduation thesis, you've had loads of researches on it so you will have no problem giving them satisfactory answers. oh how i hate the way it happened to me ~
my speech went well despite those two American GODS. then suddenly, tough questions came! out of nowhere!
those were questions that were even tougher than those I’ve had in my thesis defense~ it was not until then did i realize how easy my defense was!
they kept asking their IMPOSSIBLE questions for an hour (they used timer!) and it seemed they just couldn't get enough; afterwards i felt the overwhelming hunger~i always feel starving after terrible interviews, maybe because my brain is during lots of energy.
my first birthday after my gradation was spoiled again.
though stepping out of the company, i felt it meaningful to have had such a challenging interview.
but luckily, i had a chance to dine out with instructor in university and chatted a happy chat over dinner, let's call that a celebration, then.
today is my 22nd birthday, to tell the truth, I’ve never ever had any birthday celebration since i started school. the reason is that the end of June is always a time for exams. thinking i would be able to celebrate and have a genuine birthday party after my graduation from the university, though the reality let me down again today.
you may wonder why i didn't celebrate. ok! let me tell you what an exciting day i've had today!
i went for an interview in xiasha, (where my lovely university sits). that is my forth and final interview for the senior foreign affairs specialist positon. the interview includes a 15 min prepared speech (with slides) and a 15 min impromptu speech. there would be a Q&A time after each presentation, which functions quite like our graduation thesis defense.
thank to those presentations practices during the 4 years and the thesis defense experience, i didn't feel nervous at all. instead, i can sense the great responsibility i shoulder for this position gives the first impression on the foreign customers' mind. in the presentation, many senior interviewers and senior directors (most of which are ABCs) would pretend to be our customers and give me tough questions about anything they wanna ask.
thinking the audience is only pretending to be our customers, i didn't feel any pressure. because even if you've f**ked the interview up, you may not damage the company's image.
so there i went!
before my presentation, quite shattering though, i was informed the most and the 2nd important customers were joining the meeting! that was what they call a "short notice"! tell me they were joking, please! they are! yes they are REAL customers! GOD! MY GOD! worse still, those GODS were both ABCs! F~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~K! my heart was going to pop
i was trying to ease down and focus on my presentation, telling myself that you were presenting your graduation thesis, you've had loads of researches on it so you will have no problem giving them satisfactory answers. oh how i hate the way it happened to me ~
my speech went well despite those two American GODS. then suddenly, tough questions came! out of nowhere!
those were questions that were even tougher than those I’ve had in my thesis defense~ it was not until then did i realize how easy my defense was!
they kept asking their IMPOSSIBLE questions for an hour (they used timer!) and it seemed they just couldn't get enough; afterwards i felt the overwhelming hunger~i always feel starving after terrible interviews, maybe because my brain is during lots of energy.
my first birthday after my gradation was spoiled again.
though stepping out of the company, i felt it meaningful to have had such a challenging interview.
but luckily, i had a chance to dine out with instructor in university and chatted a happy chat over dinner, let's call that a celebration, then.
6/01/2010
神奇的一天
今天是神奇的一天
一共收到六个面试电话
有让我去南非做驻外翻译的
有模特儿经纪公司
有美国网络游戏公司
化学材料公司
今天还去那个闷骚的公司面试了
这些公司里就投过的就俩
以前怎么投都没几个反馈
今天真是暴发户了
真的是不可思议 今天怎么回事？
一共收到六个面试电话
有让我去南非做驻外翻译的
有模特儿经纪公司
有美国网络游戏公司
化学材料公司
今天还去那个闷骚的公司面试了
这些公司里就投过的就俩
以前怎么投都没几个反馈
今天真是暴发户了
真的是不可思议 今天怎么回事？
5/29/2010
5/12/2010
冲出
最近好像从阴霾中走出
但一切一切只是好像
看到中门一家可怜的人啊
觉得自己就没什么理由哀怨
其实也是这样
有时羡慕别人忙碌着
但却没看到自己幸福着
我试着试着
只能自己骗自己
每次上FB
看到他们那么灿烂
就暗想 中国人是被什么压着
压着压着 笑容没了
心理也弯曲了
于是释然了
何必呢
路边的野花 很香很香呢
也许只是不那么正派
到后来回头
这一片废墟将是永远的印记
但一切一切只是好像
看到中门一家可怜的人啊
觉得自己就没什么理由哀怨
其实也是这样
有时羡慕别人忙碌着
但却没看到自己幸福着
我试着试着
只能自己骗自己
每次上FB
看到他们那么灿烂
就暗想 中国人是被什么压着
压着压着 笑容没了
心理也弯曲了
于是释然了
何必呢
路边的野花 很香很香呢
也许只是不那么正派
到后来回头
这一片废墟将是永远的印记
4/29/2010
无语面试
今天去面试中青留学 玉古路的那个 本来对培训 留学中介是根本没什么想法的 加上昨天经历了灵川的超级笔试 面试之后 狂累 所以根本就是去忽悠忽悠的 而且我连自己申请的是什么岗位都懒的去查 连他们在哪里都懒的去知道
精神恍惚地到了那个地方之后 发现咋那么小啊 才几个人 而且每个办公室之间隔音超级不好 那些女的唧唧喳喳 烦死 在讨论什么早餐 鸡蛋之类的无聊话题 而且每个人穿的都很正式 忽然想起一句话 是这么说的 穿的很正式的公司 要么是银行 要么是皮包公司 要么卖保险的
这样一想之后 简直想走人出去爬山了（今天天气不错的）
面试开始 一个满脸怨妇情节的男人出现 也是皮包公司相 先问 你爸妈干嘛的 你有男友吗之类的无聊私人问题 感觉我隐私严重被侵犯 想想算了 赶紧结束面试 去爬山 没想到丫一堆无聊问题之后 让我做一个一小时的中翻英 一张密密麻麻的A4纸啊！娘的！当姐姐太有时间了是吧！姐真的很想问他 这样有意义吗 姐真的很想走了 当时 因为我根本没打算来 而且来了之后这公司没有任何吸引我之处 可是又说不出口 于是就开始很sucker地翻译 娘的 全都是金融类长句子啊 专业术语啊 无聊至极 我真怀疑他们是不是没人愿意翻译这个文件 把姐拿来当免费工人使了 姐写字的时候是怒火熊熊 熊熊了一个小时
还剩7分钟的时候 姐火了 出去跟前台说 我就停在这里吧 再下去没有意义了 加上我在翻译那么紧张翻译的时候 那帮女人外面唧唧喳喳不停 真想杀出去 然后前台那女的 很震惊地看真我 觉得姐很拽 他也不想想 姐都翻的火死了
然后她让我等 姐火死 难道他还想问我家存款多少？但是还好 那个男人说 你好走了 姐于是大义凛然地走了 再也不去了 骗子公司
精神恍惚地到了那个地方之后 发现咋那么小啊 才几个人 而且每个办公室之间隔音超级不好 那些女的唧唧喳喳 烦死 在讨论什么早餐 鸡蛋之类的无聊话题 而且每个人穿的都很正式 忽然想起一句话 是这么说的 穿的很正式的公司 要么是银行 要么是皮包公司 要么卖保险的
这样一想之后 简直想走人出去爬山了（今天天气不错的）
面试开始 一个满脸怨妇情节的男人出现 也是皮包公司相 先问 你爸妈干嘛的 你有男友吗之类的无聊私人问题 感觉我隐私严重被侵犯 想想算了 赶紧结束面试 去爬山 没想到丫一堆无聊问题之后 让我做一个一小时的中翻英 一张密密麻麻的A4纸啊！娘的！当姐姐太有时间了是吧！姐真的很想问他 这样有意义吗 姐真的很想走了 当时 因为我根本没打算来 而且来了之后这公司没有任何吸引我之处 可是又说不出口 于是就开始很sucker地翻译 娘的 全都是金融类长句子啊 专业术语啊 无聊至极 我真怀疑他们是不是没人愿意翻译这个文件 把姐拿来当免费工人使了 姐写字的时候是怒火熊熊 熊熊了一个小时
还剩7分钟的时候 姐火了 出去跟前台说 我就停在这里吧 再下去没有意义了 加上我在翻译那么紧张翻译的时候 那帮女人外面唧唧喳喳不停 真想杀出去 然后前台那女的 很震惊地看真我 觉得姐很拽 他也不想想 姐都翻的火死了
然后她让我等 姐火死 难道他还想问我家存款多少？但是还好 那个男人说 你好走了 姐于是大义凛然地走了 再也不去了 骗子公司
4/23/2010
超强HR
接连几天的面试，各种行业都有，其实算上上学期的话，我找工作都找成妖精了。各种各样的面试官，从开始的惊讶，到后来的习惯，真是有痛苦也有意思。
一直不想放弃。自己也很纳闷，同学也为我感到奇怪，为什么一个老老实实工作的，能力也还出色的人会一直没有找到。因为现在时间越来越紧迫，所以每天会不由自主地去反省。怀疑自己是不是老了，每天早上自动6点半醒来，没有一丝睡意。
现在想想，其实找工作这个过程虽然很痛苦，虽然我现在还没有摆脱这种痛苦，但也很塑造性格。从开始的初出茅庐的尖锐，到后来的故意乔装，到现在的自然流露的顺从与低调。今天我在想，最后到底会有什么“怪胎公司”和我签约。真的很想知道答案，而且我也知道这个答案即将出现。
最近两天的面试，和以前不一样。也不知是什么原因，这几次的面试，面试官都会齐刷刷地在面试结束后当场说你不适合，并且告诉我为什么不适合。这样其实对一个人的心理承受其实是很大的挑战，但在更大程度上，这样的面试官会对你很有帮助，虽然我当时真的很想杀过去，可是正是这些人以专业的眼光告诉你 你的问题在哪里的时候 你才会更有针对性。
今天遇到一个超级无敌HR，中智的，很专业，眼光很准确，我有点讨厌她，但是很佩服他的专业能力。她说：你的问题在于你 主观意识太强。 她说 我能看到你的能力 也知道你很敬业 但是你这样做的前提是你要认可这个东西。 哇 她这么一说 真是说到我心里去了 我暗自想 怎么连我自己都归纳不清楚的问题 你能帮我归纳这么精辟啊 而且就在这么短的时间内 当时真的好恨她 但更佩服她
不过这个也是算我一大收获了 以后的路上 我会更清楚。
一直不想放弃。自己也很纳闷，同学也为我感到奇怪，为什么一个老老实实工作的，能力也还出色的人会一直没有找到。因为现在时间越来越紧迫，所以每天会不由自主地去反省。怀疑自己是不是老了，每天早上自动6点半醒来，没有一丝睡意。
现在想想，其实找工作这个过程虽然很痛苦，虽然我现在还没有摆脱这种痛苦，但也很塑造性格。从开始的初出茅庐的尖锐，到后来的故意乔装，到现在的自然流露的顺从与低调。今天我在想，最后到底会有什么“怪胎公司”和我签约。真的很想知道答案，而且我也知道这个答案即将出现。
最近两天的面试，和以前不一样。也不知是什么原因，这几次的面试，面试官都会齐刷刷地在面试结束后当场说你不适合，并且告诉我为什么不适合。这样其实对一个人的心理承受其实是很大的挑战，但在更大程度上，这样的面试官会对你很有帮助，虽然我当时真的很想杀过去，可是正是这些人以专业的眼光告诉你 你的问题在哪里的时候 你才会更有针对性。
今天遇到一个超级无敌HR，中智的，很专业，眼光很准确，我有点讨厌她，但是很佩服他的专业能力。她说：你的问题在于你 主观意识太强。 她说 我能看到你的能力 也知道你很敬业 但是你这样做的前提是你要认可这个东西。 哇 她这么一说 真是说到我心里去了 我暗自想 怎么连我自己都归纳不清楚的问题 你能帮我归纳这么精辟啊 而且就在这么短的时间内 当时真的好恨她 但更佩服她
不过这个也是算我一大收获了 以后的路上 我会更清楚。
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