my 22nd birthday~life is a maze

long time since my last post, the longer i live, the less i write. tragic! tragic!

today is my 22nd birthday, to tell the truth, I’ve never ever had any birthday celebration since i started school. the reason is that the end of June is always a time for exams. thinking i would be able to celebrate and have a genuine birthday party after my graduation from the university, though the reality let me down again today.

you may wonder why i didn't celebrate. ok! let me tell you what an exciting day i've had today!

i went for an interview in xiasha, (where my lovely university sits). that is my forth and final interview for the senior foreign affairs specialist positon. the interview includes a 15 min prepared speech (with slides) and a 15 min impromptu speech. there would be a Q&A time after each presentation, which functions quite like our graduation thesis defense.

thank to those presentations practices during the 4 years and the thesis defense experience, i didn't feel nervous at all. instead, i can sense the great responsibility i shoulder for this position gives the first impression on the foreign customers' mind. in the presentation, many senior interviewers and senior directors (most of which are ABCs) would pretend to be our customers and give me tough questions about anything they wanna ask.

thinking the audience is only pretending to be our customers, i didn't feel any pressure. because even if you've f**ked the interview up, you may not damage the company's image.

so there i went!

before my presentation, quite shattering though, i was informed the most and the 2nd important customers were joining the meeting! that was what they call a "short notice"! tell me they were joking, please! they are! yes they are REAL customers! GOD! MY GOD! worse still, those GODS were both ABCs! F~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~K! my heart was going to pop

i was trying to ease down and focus on my presentation, telling myself that you were presenting your graduation thesis, you've had loads of researches on it so you will have no problem giving them satisfactory answers. oh how i hate the way it happened to me ~

my speech went well despite those two American GODS. then suddenly, tough questions came! out of nowhere!

those were questions that were even tougher than those I’ve had in my thesis defense~ it was not until then did i realize how easy my defense was!

they kept asking their IMPOSSIBLE questions for an hour (they used timer!) and it seemed they just couldn't get enough; afterwards i felt the overwhelming hunger~i always feel starving after terrible interviews, maybe because my brain is during lots of energy.

my first birthday after my gradation was spoiled again.

though stepping out of the company, i felt it meaningful to have had such a challenging interview.
but luckily, i had a chance to dine out with instructor in university and chatted a happy chat over dinner, let's call that a celebration, then.