What's going on?

最近喜欢上了爵士乐,消沉颓废懒洋洋的爵士，最爱的是Norah Jones 的那首Don't know why ,百听不厌.

还有4 Non Blondes 的What's up,开始只是很喜欢那种金属质感的声音,但细听歌词,发现与现在所处的状态越来越像,越听越感到现实的无奈与可悲... ...

I waited tillI saw the sun
I don’t know why I didn’t come 　　
I left you by the house of fun 　　
I don’t know why I didn’t come 　　
I don’t know why I didn’t come 　　
When I saw the break of day 　　
I wished that I could fly away 　　
Instead of kneeling in the sand 　　
Catching teardrops in my hand 　　
My heart is drenched in wine 　　
But you’ll be on my mind 　　
Forever 　
　
Out across the endless sea 　　
I would die in ecstasy 　　
But I’ll be a bag of bones 　　
Driving down the road alone 　　
My heart is drenched in wine 　　
But you’ll be on my mind 　　
Forever 　　
Something has to make you run 　　
I don’t know why I didn’t come 　　
I feel as empty as a drum 　　
I don’t know why I didn’t come 　　
I don’t know why I didn’t come 　　
I don’t know why I didn’t come

枯等到看见清晨第一道曙光　　
我也不知道自己为何没出现　　
　　
当我看见第一道晨曦　　
我愿自己能飞离　　
而不是跑坐在沙滩下 　
双手盛满了泪水　　
我的心在酒精里消沉

在无尽的海洋之外　　
我愿意在狂喜中死去　　
但我不过是个行尸走肉　　
孤独行走　　
某些事让你必须离开　　
我不懂自己为何没出现　　
我就像个空心的鼓　　
我也不懂自己为何没出现……

Dying in ecstasy……
醉眼朦胧
消沉
放纵
欢歌
迷惘
一切又将如何……

直到
万物化作尘
尘埃落地……


25 years of my life and still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
I realized quickly when I knew I shouldThat the world was made up of thisBrotherhood of man
For whatever that means
So I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
To get it all out what's in my head
Then I start feeling a little peculiar
So I wake in the morning and I stepOutside I take deep breathI get real high
Then I scream from the top of my lungsWhat's going on
And I say hey...
And I say hey ,what's going on
And I say hey...I said hey what's going on

And I try, oh my God do I try
I try all the time
In this institution
And I pray, oh my God do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
So I cry sometimes when I'm lying in my bed
To get it all out what's in my head
Then I start feeling a little peculiar
So I wake in the morning and I step outsideI take a deep breath then I get real high
Then I scream from the top of my lungsWhat's going on
And I say hey...
And I say hey what's going on
And I say hey...I said hey what's going' on
And I say hey...And I say hey what's going' on
And I say hey...I said hey what's going on
25 years of my life and still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination...

活在现实里，不得不学会妥协

现实一些，就没有自己了？
真的就没了
真的没了

那所谓的Destination 又是什么？
追求它为了什么？

为什么要pray for revolution
因为I hate Institution

为什么要在意Institution
因为人要现实

为什么要现实
因为我们要活着

为什么要活着
因为……
因为……

到底为什么……